Retreating to Advance

My life is rich with opportunity and, because of this fullness, writing has been put on the shelf to gather dust for a while. Last year, during February half-term, I went north-east to visit my brother and comb my manuscript with a second opinion – so helpful. I restructured the work and breathed new life into stale and stodgy moments of the first 23,000 words. But, no more.

On the day I left, my husband suggested my brother and I should think about running some writing retreats. I dismissed the idea. The only running my brother and I would be doing together was most probably away from responsibility to do with running anything! Still, he planted a seed.

Twelve months later, this February half-term, my brother and I went away for a writing retreat together, in beautiful Leominster.

And we were not alone. We were joined by an incredible writer from South Wales who I had met on a Wye Valley Writing Retreat an number of years ago. She brought delightful inspiration and challenge to our time together.

“What do you hope to achieve over these four days?”, being her first question to us.

So, we each worked on our own projects for the majority of the day and then came together for food and an evening writing challenge, which we had to fulfill in half an hour – alarms set! On the first night, that meant writing something suggested by three random words from a book. These were: Conflict, It and Previous. On the second day, we had mosied around the numerous antique shops in Leominster, for the afternoon, and secretly chosen an object to write about. Antiques and objects were overwhelming, but with only half and hour to write, I had to make a snappy decision about which it would be and dive in. Sometimes the things you find hardest become the greatest victories. I felt that with this. On the third night, we had to write a dialogue as a play for three characters and then take a part and read it between us. Such fun! Our final challenge was to play a game of Sedecordle and include the resulting sixteen words in a piece of prose. I was the only one to get all sixteen words in, but it was a daft bit of writing!

Wisdom, inspiration, experience and expertise found their place in the beauty of sharing. Time set aside to focus, along with permission giving purpose to write made all of us fruitful. It was a time to retreat in order to advance our writing and I felt I have regained momentum again with my work, having been allowed to wallow in it for a concentrated time.

The Leominster Retreaters!

Please check out the work of Bobbie Allen: https://typewriterpress202.wixsite.com/website and Seymour Jacklin: https://www.bordersofsleep.com/ They are both wonderful writers.

I leave you with my short story, inspired by a small object found in an antique shop. The day after writing, I acquired it!

Alistair knew that the distance between the opening of the pipe and the base of the wall was the same length as his thumb. He would lie on his belly and watch the spider build its web in the pipe, when the sun shone. The wind would ruffle the threads and distort the pattern, but the spider kept working, just like his Dad. Whatever the weather, his father worked on.  

Alistair knew that it was thirty-nine steps from the gate to the stile on the pathway to school. Every day, it was the same. He would count them and when he learnt to count to a hundred his teacher commended him and brought him out before the rest of the class. He felt special. He felt clever. 

Alistair knew there were three hundred and sixty-five days in a year, apart from those leap years when February threw in an extra day. He felt sorry for Marie who was born on February 29th and never knew when to celebrate her birthday. It had just been a cosy three until Marie came along and she was never well, but he loved her all the same. Mum said he was a great help. 

Alistair counted the taps on the door that day his uncle came and everything changed. The rhythm still repeats in his head. Tap, tap … tap, TAP, tap, the emphasis falling on the penultimate tap. His uncle Thomas blew into the room calling for Helen like a banshee and she ran with him, but there was nothing that could be done. His Dad had bled his best and given his all. There was no life left in him. A rogue saw was all it took, an accidental slice. 

Alistair knew how highly everyone viewed his father’s skill. Over three hundred came to his funeral, including the squire. Uncle Thomas wrapped a corner of his coat around Marie and held her close in the cold of the pew, while Alistair held his mother’s hand. His was almost the same size as hers. 

At the wake, Uncle Thomas took him aside.  

“This is for you.” He said.  

A small leather pouch lay in his hand. 

“Thank you.” He put it in his pocket. 

The church clock struck three. Alistair listened. He counted his steps all the way home with his hand resting in his pocket, wrapped around the leather pouch. It was a little longer than his thumb. 

When he got home, Marie was crying and Mum was cuddling her.  

“Look what Uncle Thomas gave me.” He said to distract her, pulling the pouch from his pocket. 

His mother gasped. 

“That was your Father’s” she said. “His father gave it to him.” 

“What is it?” Marie asked. 

He unclipped the popper and gently pulled out a small ruler folded against itself in several segments. 

“He used it to measure every piece of work.” Mum said. 

An Official Reader

Gladstone’s Library, Hawarden

Today, I sat in the Worship section of the library and was surrounded by Hymn Books. I was reminded of researching and writing my BMus Dissertation on Welsh Hymnology. What would I say to my 20 year old self, if I were to go back and give advice?

“Don’t leave all the writing to the last minute!”

Actually, I knew that at the time, and it made no difference. Would a person coming from the future and telling me the same thing have made a difference?

I once made myself a motivational poster for my cork noticeboard. I was 12 at the time. It said, “Plan Ahe…” and I ran out of space. The “ad” got squished around the corner and looked ridiculous. How I laughed and loved this authentic expression of my greatest downfall. Planning ahead was not my strong point. My first public speaking competition was a speech on “Procrastination”. It won! I had had a lot of practise.

I like to think I have learnt since then how to manage my time better. It’s more than a thought. I know I manage my time better now than I did as a youngster. Experience has moulded me. But today, the words did not flow as fast as I would have liked. I dithered and got distracted by research. I fiddled with my headphones. I wondered if it was too early for a break and a cup of tea. I wrote my birthday list. I discussed a short piece of writing with my husband via WhatsApp. I lost my train of thought. But inbetween, I got a stack load of writing done and felt very satisfied.

It’s half term and, hip, hip, hooray, I have some days set aside for writing – whole days! Why do I feel like I have had a glorious soul cleanse? That’s the way it goes, I suppose.

…from morning light to purple dusk…

Rummaging in Research

Sat in the garden, coffee to hand, laptop open, snatches of sun sneaking through gaps in the clouds, and I can hear that familiar sound of summer: someone cutting their lawn. Ah! And here comes cake. This is a lazy, go-slow sort of holiday – just what we needed. This morning we collected daughter no. 1 from a single carriage train that dropped her off on a teeny-tiny archaic Victorian platform. It reminded me of my University days and my father collecting me from a request stop on the Tarka line. She’s been working and has come to join us for a few days. Now she sits playing Connect Four with daughter no. 2, coffee and cake beside her, while an ancient rusty tractor trundles past. Though there isn’t a lot to do around here, I am told we are booked to visit an observatory tomorrow to have a look at their big telescope. We will walk again this afternoon.

My husband plans to walk a long-distance path (135 miles) starting on Saturday. He has more time off than me and has chosen to spend it exploring the ups and downs of country lanes, fields and forest on foot. He will be crossing stunning countryside. No consideration forgotten as he plans the expedition, but I am feeling a little exhausted from listening to all the preparation talk; his need for this and need for that. It would seem that the preparation is as exciting as the walk itself. He has also been eating to gain weight so that he can take less food with him – at least that is the idea – but his habits are placing a lot of temptation on my table. I feel that all I have done this week is eat, sleep, read and rest.

In truth, I have indulged in a favourite past-time. I have been able to do some more research for my writing and have been rummaging through the big old kist that harbours my great-grandmother’s hoards: photographs, letters, postcards, journals, invitations, newspaper cuttings, magazines, all sorts.

The kist

She started a good thing and my grandparents continued it. I am so grateful to them. It has made for a fascinating holiday. I have found two letters from Lord Louis Mountbatten in the 1960s, one inviting my grandfather to join him for a drink. Someone has stuck a ‘post it’ note to them commenting on the colour of the ink. Apparently only the Admiralty write in green ink! I have found the negative for a magazine photo of four leading political figures in the establishment of the Union of South Africa. I cannot think why we have the negative, but I also can’t help feeling it is of some significant historical interest. It would seem to be from the early 1900s. I also found a postcard, which I think is in my great-grandfather’s handwriting (not 100% sure) sent from German East Africa during the First World War and written in German. German, why German? I encountered other letters from my great-grandfather written in later life to my grandfather. My own father always spoke so highly of my great-grandfather. He adored him. I have to say that reading these letters really touched my heart. My great-grandfather does indeed come across as such a lovely, lovely man with a strong faith. There is also a pamphlet written by him about the League of Nations’ Finances. I was most intrigued to see the list of countries that continued to pay their membership fees to the League throughout the war. The name that surprised me most was Afganistan.

There are so many letters to and from a variety of people. One I particularly enjoyed was from 1935 to my great-grandmother. I have no idea who the writer is other than her name is Geraldine and she lived in England. Her letter tells the story of her young daughter bouncing into her bed and bursting a hot water bottle. The poor ‘wee lass’, as the mother writes, was very badly scalded and needed the skill of a privately employed nurse to help her get better. With all the research I have been doing of medical practise at the time, this fits. The letter goes on to complain about the servants! The writer is in quite a dilemma about how to handle them and the temper of one in particular.

My great-grandmother appears to have been very sociable and a great letter writer herself, but why did she keep some letters and not others, I wonder?

My greatest pleasure was to discover some more letters and photos from the protagonist of my story. The two sweetest things are a summer holiday diary from when he was 13 and the log of a road trip he made with his mother across Europe when he was 21. Such beautiful fuel for my fire. I love this puzzling and piecing things together to build a story.

I think the kist could produce many more stories yet, but it will take some time and dedication to sort. In the meantime, we will enjoy this ‘nothing ever happens’ holiday place and relax with the slow tempo of life. Oh! What was that? I have just heard a scrap merchant disturb the peace with a call from his vehicle for “Any old Iron?”. Well, I never! Something does happen here after all.

Book Launch

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October 15th 11am @Festival Church, Chester

All are welcome. There will be a display of the cover artist’s work; other books available from Hillman Publishing; a dramatisation of a scene from the book; an interview with the publishers and author; book signings; presentation from the Evan Roberts Istitute; a newly commissioned piece of music called ‘Elin’s Air’ performed; the publisher’s competition prize giving; and access to the Gallery Coffee shop.

Starts at 11 and the church will be open for the rest of the day for people to drift in and out as they wish.